Baby Haynes

2007 - 2007
LocationPeterborough
Age0
Cause of DeathEctopic Pregnancy
Date of Death21/02/2007
Visitors2,521 since 04/09/2008
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Our baby was planned, but came as a surprise, as I had not expected to fall pregnant so soon. Our
Baby was loved from the start. I had been bleeding for 3 weeks after coming off the pill, so I took
a pregnancy test. It was positive. I was so upset to find out I was pregnant, when I should have
been happy - I was so worried because I had been bleeding for so long. I was told to go to the
Doctors for another pregnancy test in 3 days. The test came back positive so I was sent for a scan.
The sonographer asked how long I'd been bleeding & showed me the scan, there was nothing there. I
was told to come back for a blood test in 3 days to confirm miscarriage. My blood test came back
that I was sill pregnant! I was so happy, the doctor said my pregnancy could be going fine, but to
come back for another blood test in 2 days. After 2 weeks of blood tests, also being in a lot of
pain, I was told I'd miscarried. After more blood tests to confirm the miscarriage I was told I was
still pregnant. Then I found out my baby was ectopic, and I had to have an injection of methotrexate
to end the pregnancy at 8/9 weeks. The nurses were really insensitive, at the moment I was about to
be given the injection, the nurse said to me 'don't look so worried, it's only a jab!' Our Baby was
going to be named Summer / Primrose if a girl...we never had chance to think of any boys names, but
I always thought of baby as a girl and we spoke of her as a 'she'. When me and my angel meet up in
heaven one day I might have a very cross little boy :). Our baby would have been due October 9. I
still feel so guilty, even though I know the baby would never have lived and I could have died if
the pregnancy had continued. Rest in peace baby, you are still loved and thought of every day.
Please light a candle for my angel xxx


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to my mother

I see you each time you shed a tear,
I catch it and kiss you, I hope that you know that I'm near.
This place is so beautiful, There's so much to see!
I know that someday you'll be here with me.
The angels were singing when I arrived!
Jesus was there with His arms open wide!
The snow and the rain are just my confetti.
I know you'll be coming and I want to be ready.
When you feel the wind, it's me walking by.
I can run and skip now, I can even fly!
When the blossoms and leaves fall into your hair,
It's me planting kisses, yes, I put them there!
The birds are singing to keep you company,
They're especially for you with love from me.
I know that you miss me and feel so alone,
Until the great day when you finally come home
Please remember as the seasons change from one to another,
I'll always love you. You're my friend and my mother.

Dawn Mitchell 1998

Gail Seaton 2 weeks ago

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Tributes For Week Starting 9th November


FOR MONDAY

Your presence I miss,
Your memory I treasure,
Loving you always,
Forgetting you never.

FOR TUESDAY

Loving you is easy,
We do it every day,
Missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.

FOR WEDNESDAY

No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye,
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God can tell us why.

FOR THURSDAY

Memory is a lovely lane,
Where hearts are ever true,
A lane I so often travel down,
Because it leads to you.


FOR FRIDAY

Wings Of The Angels

A gentle wind blew cross the land
Reaching out to take a hand
For on the winds the angels came
Calling out a mother's name.

Left behind, the children's tears
Loving memories of the years
Of joy and love, a life well spent
And now to God a mother's sent.

On angel's wings, a heavenly flight
The journey home, towards the light
To those who weep, a life is gone
But in God's love, 'tis but the dawn.

FOR SATURDAY

If I Had One Last Day

If I had one last day
To tell you what's inside
I'd tell you that I'm sorry
For all the times I've lied

I'd tell you that I need you
To hold my hand today
I'd tell you that I love you
I'd ask you, please, to stay

You'd look at me and smile
The way you always would
And say "I'd love to stay,
If only I really could"

Then you'd laugh the way you did
Whenever I was blue
You'd wipe my tears and whisper softly,
"Don't cry, I love you too"

If I had one last day
I'd love you from the start
I'd stop hiding how I feel
I'd say what's in my heart

If I had one last day,
I'd say my last good-bye
And that even though you are far away,
In my heart, you'll never die.

FOR SUNDAY

Cry Not My Friend

When you wake up tomorrow
And I am no where to be found
When you scream out my name
To the emptiness around

When every beat inside your heart
Is skipping and unsure
Cry not my friend for I am here,
Inside your love so pure

When the waves that used to touch our feet
Have gone back out to sea
When everything you once held dear
Was lost when you lost me

When the sun that once lit up your face
Is setting far away
Cry not my Friend for time shall pass,
But my love for you will stay

When age arrives and children play
And pain creeps up on you
When loved ones show you happiness
That your life never knew

When all of your expectations are met,
No matter what the pain
Cry not my friend, for I am waiting
To hold you once again

When beauty in your eyes turn grey
And all of the rainbow, white
When strong undying hearts
No longer feel an urge to fight

When winter snows become more pain
Than beauty in your heart
Cry not my friend, for I am here
And we will never ever part

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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum

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Marie-Angela Rowe 2 weeks ago

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Tributes For This Week 12th October

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FOR MONDAY

Our thoughts are ever with you
Though you have passed away.
And those who loved you dearly
Are thinking of you today.

FOR TUESDAY

Everyday in some small way
Memories of you come our way.
Though absent, you are always near
Still missed, loved and always dear.

FOR WEDNESDAY

We can't have old days back
When we were all together.
But secret tears and loving thoughts
Will be with us forever.

FOR THURSDAY

Thank you for loving and sharing,
For giving and for caring.
God bless you and keep you,
Until we meet again.

FOR FRIDAY

God saw you getting tired
And a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you
And whispered "Come to Me".

A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands now rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.

FOR SATURDAY

Little did we know that morning
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you,
You are always by our side.

Our family chain is broken
And nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

FOR SUNDAY

Right now I'm in a different place
And though we seem apart
I'm closer than I ever was
... I'm there inside your heart

I'm with you when you greet each day
And while the sun shines bright
I'm there to share the sunsets, too
... I'm with you every night

I'm with you when the times are good
To share a laugh or two,
And if a tear should start to fall
... I'll still be there for you

And when that day arrives
That we no longer are apart,
I'll smile and hold you close to me
... Forever

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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum

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Marie-Angela Rowe October 12, 2009

FOR BABY

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♪♪♪ ♫ 14TH JULY 2009.♪♪♪ ♫

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LOVE JUDE. X X

Jude Swaddle (Friend) July 14, 2009

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Jude Swaddle (Friend) June 29, 2009

♥ GOODNIGHT AND GOD BLESS.♥

As I look at the moon
I wish you goodnight
The dearest angel
So special and loved.

You are the one God chose to take
You are the one we could not wake
I know in heaven is now where you sleep.

So please God in heaven
God up above
Please protect this angel
That we love.

I must say good night
I blow to you a kiss
I wish you goodnight
The angel that we miss.

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copyright� Jo Dalton 2009

Jude Swaddle (Friend) June 28, 2009

18TH MAY 2009

~~~~ Two Twinkling Stars ~~~~

I looked up to the sky last night
and saw two twinkling stars,
I thought about the distance
of Jupiter and Mars.

I thought how far was heaven
was it further than these two
I wondered just how far it was
to Gods garden and to you.

I know one day I'll find out
just how far I'll need to travel
I know that God one day for me
this mystery will unravel

Until that day I'll miss you
every hour that I live through
I'll miss you till the day
comes when I'll finally be with you.


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Jude Swaddle (Friend) May 18, 2009

12TH MAY 2009

♥ A Shade of Sadness. ♥


In comes the darkness to my soul
even as I sit in the early morning sun,
the distant sounds of the living
seem far removed from the fogginess of my mind.

In the stillness of the house
which seems quieter than quiet,
time seems to pass too slowly.

A feeling of being outside myself
looking back into an empty shell
of the person I used to be.

I cry for my former self.
That person I once liked and enjoyed.
She is gone.
A loss within a loss, within a loss.

A heaviness in my heart,
the weight of a million tears.
Drowning my emotions,
mixing and swirling in a pool of despair.
Ugly hateful despair.

A sadness so deep and heavy
leaving the body tired and used,
I feel I could sleep,
sleep for a thousand years and never wake up.

A thousand years will not change a thing.
You would still not be here.
What to believe, I don't know.
I just don't know. My soul is lost.

I know not which way to turn.
Where to look,

I feel helpless,
helpless to help my self,
annoyed with the daily things of life I must do.

I don't care, not anymore.
The world could fall upon it's knees
it would not matter,
I am too shrouded in the darkness of my world
that spins ever out of control,
directing my emotions
with no warning as to what feelings
will be brought upon me next.

There is guilt, another weight to bear.
Those who are with me, who I love and love me,
they need me, but I am not ready.
I hold them back at arms length,
I am not ready,
their demands draw on what strength I have left.
For that I am sorry,
but I cannot help bringing on the emotional distance.
There is a need to protect myself,
but from what I am not sure.

There is anger.
Anger that occasionally swells within me.
There is no direction into which to fling this anger.
It is a new and different type of anger
not one I am familiar with and it disturbs me.
It makes me afraid.

I try to be strong. For you, and only you.
I try to think what you would have me do.

I know you would want me to live my life.
To continue on. It is not an easy task, not at all.

Some days I can go out
and meet the world with vigor and say I do this for you.

Some days I must crawl into my shell
and hide from the world that has been so cruel to me.
I am trying.

The days are filled with thoughts of you,
and should I find myself not thinking of you,
I gasp for fear that I am forgetting you.

I have learned to value life, you have taught me this.
To see the beauty in each day given to me,
even through this veil of sad darkness.
I know it is there waiting for me.

Someday the sadness will lift
and I will only think of you
with a smile and warmness in my heart.
My love for you will always be there
that shall never pass
and I hope somehow you know this too.

Your memory is only a heartbeat away.
I shall always love,
I shall always long for you,
I shall always wish to have you back.
And I shall live -- if only for you.

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♥ LOVE JUDE. X X.


♥ By Donna Mae Scuncio. ♥

Jude Swaddle (Friend) May 12, 2009

9TH MAY 2009

★ WHEN I SEE......★

WHEN I FEEL THE BREEZE I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE A BRIGHT STAR I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE A LITTLE SUNSHINE I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE A BUTTERFLY I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE A BEAUTIFUL FLOWER I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE A RAINDROP I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE THE SKY ABOVE I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE A RAINBOW I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE THE CLEAR SEA I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE A SHADOW I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I WAKE I THINK OF YOU.

WHEN I SEE A WHITE FEATHER I KNOW IT'S YOU.

LOVE JUDE. X


★ copyright* Ros Roberts ★

Jude Swaddle (Friend) May 9, 2009
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